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Ministry of Reality Monday, the morning after

So, apparently, there was no reality yesterday. I was just living in a dreamworld. And all was butterflies and roses.

Actually . . . there was a butterfly in my house yesterday. Ruthie somehow caught it the day before. Yes. Ruthie. Caught a butterfly. And no one knows how. She just showed up inside with a butterfly in Hannah’s butterfly habitat. Who could know how the three year old was able to capture the elusive butterfly? So, we kept the butterfly all that day, with Ruthie occasionally shaking the stuffing out of the net habitat thingie. That evening we put in a sugar water solution for it, as per the instructions of the well-informed eight-year-old Boy. Then yesterday afternoon, I was informed by my dear husband that at some point during the day our very delicate flower of a third-born pinched four of the butterfly’s legs off. “And the remaining ones are both on the same side of his body,” adds the Man, as if a lopsided butterfly is somehow worse than one who has to drag himself around. The butterfly mysteriously disappeared in the night. That’s our story and we’re sticking to it.

So, that had absolutely nothing to do with my intended goal of this post. Sometimes my brain just wanders off course, veers off my intended path. Probably not unlike a lopsided butterfly . . .

Anywhooo . . . I went with the “morning after” title because I lived my reality du jour–or is it du semaine, given the goal of this little blog project?–last night. Back when I first entered the wonderful land of Mommyhood, I was under the delusion er impression that the absolute worst mommy mistake one could ever make was to invite one’s offspring to sleep in the marital bed. Don’t do it. Not even once. They’ll never leave. It will ruin your marriage. I don’t even know all the reasons I was given, but it was a huge No-No.

Obviously I went against the grain. The Boy would not, could not sleep next to another person. So, with him it was no problem to maintain that carved-in-stone rule. His first sister, however, would not, could not NOT sleep next to another person. And you know what? Neither can her father. So, out of desperation and inspired by some new-found crunchy imaginary friends, I put Hannah in bed with me. And there she slept. Ever so well. So, we attached her annex and away we went. Both of us sleeping better than we had since several months before she was born. That’s where Ruth started, in the annex, the crib attached to our bed, but in time we discovered she, like her brother, preferred to sleep alone. Lo and behold! our babies appeared to have their own little personalities and preferences. Go figure.

Fast forward a couple of years. Everyone has settled into sleeping in his or her own bed. They each go to sleep at night rather quickly and easily. Except the used-to-be-a-perfect-sleeper Boy. Who has fits of insomnia at times. Not unlike his father. Go figure. The mini-me Boy can experience the same sorts of sleep disturbances as his predecessor. Even though he’s just a kid. Apparently he didn’t get the memo that insomnia can’t impact you until you’ve hit a certain age. I guess that age is somewhere around the point at which it will no longer impact your parents. Not until the age of “you’re on your own, kid.” But I digress . . .

Mostly everyone sleeps great, right through the night, right in their own beds, despite all the dire warnings of eight years ago. But sometimes, one or the other will have their sleep disturbed by stresses of developmental spurt, or changes in routine or life’s circumstances, or for no real apparent reason. Sound familiar? I’m pretty sure these are the sorts of things that inspired pharmaceuticals to invent Ambien. Except, again, these sleep disturbances are only permitted once one has passed the age of “you’re on your own kid.”

And now, 660 words in, I get to my point. Between last night and the night before, every kid in the house (and in the night it felt like surely there must be thirty of ’em in this place) had a sleep disturbance. Vacation, while fun, has certainly exacted a toll on the children’s little psyches. Isaac and Ruth both are suffering some severe sleep deprivation. Isaac’s results in insomnia. Ruthie’s results in random acts of violence against her siblings, but that’s a-whole-nother post.

I know it involved two nights, but it’s all one big blur. Maybe it was three nights. Yes. Three. Mostly as a result of getting back on track after vacation. One night, when it was super, crazy hot, Isaac and Hannah both went to sleep in our bed because I didn’t have the heart to make them try to fall asleep in their hot attic bedroom when my bedroom has an A/C unit. So, when Ry and I were ready to go to bed, Ry picked up and carried upstairs both sleeping children. (He really must stop doing this with the 80-lb 8-year-old, however.) About an hour later one of them returned; we all fell back to sleep.

This is when the last three nights all look very similar. At some point, I wake up and ask Ry to return the sleeping kid back to his/her own bed. Mostly because Ruthie is in the habit of coming in sometime shortly after the sun rises, thinking it’s actually morning and not 5:30, and if she’s not disturbed, she’ll lie next to me and sleep another hour or two (or even three, but that only happens on Sundays, when I need to be in the pulpit at 8:30).

So, with Ruthie’s habit ever in mind, I kick the older two out at some point. With our new King-sized bed, I barely notice they’re there, I can sleep and sleep. But for the last three nights, it seemed that a half-hour after we’d return one to his own bed, another would arrive. And again, put her back, then the third one comes, and so on until, I’m pretty sure, the whole neighborhood has shown up in our bed at some point during the last three nights.

Crazy? Yes. Tiring? A little. But you know what else it is? Sweet. And warm. And cozy. And butterflies (with all appendages accounted for) and roses. Because it’s real. Because sometimes people have trouble sleeping. Sometimes our nightmares wake us up, sometimes the stresses of our lives keep us up. But how wonderful to grow up in a world, and continue living in a world, where when the things that go bump! in the night can be soothed away with compassion and love and warm–though groggy–words of comfort and snuggles abounding. Don’t we all want to live in that world? I do.

And some day, very, very soon, my children will stop crawling into bed with me at night. And, if every older friend I’ve ever had can be trusted, I will miss it. I will miss the late-night snuggles. I will miss the Super Mom ability to soothe all ills. In the meantime, I hold my babies close and pray that they will someday find someone else who will not mind a little sleep disruption for the sake of offering them comfort as their much bigger, much scarier adult-sized boogie men crawl out of the shadows in the night.

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Ministry of Reality Monday, Vacation Edition

We are on vacation.  One would think we would leave our reality behind and have an other-worldly trip of bliss whilst enjoying our days of together time in some mountains not our own.

Ha!  One would be wrong.  Very wrong.  Because, really, nothing brings out Reality like a trip with three small kids.  Shall I start with the never-ending drive?  I could.  But it would be so depressing.  And long.  The short version is the drive wasn’t.  We’ve had some trips where we average 50 miles per hour over the course of 529-mile journey, stops included.  This time we averaged just under 20 mph.  Ryan tells me we could have taken the stage coach to make better time.  Now, we did stop for an overnight in a hotel where we all got some really good sleep.  However.  That’s not the only problem.

Why is it that two girls who have to be begged to empty their bladders so as to maintain health and wellness every other day of the year needed to stop every half-hour during our 665 mile journey?  Why is it that it took us two hours to drive the first 50 miles?  Oh.  I know why.  It’s construction season in my home state.  And we had to drive past all those pretty orange barrels.  It had to be simply a barrel display, because I didn’t see a lick of construction.

All in all it took us 27.5 hours to arrive at our destination, 2 hours of which were spent listening to the song “Remarkable Cows.”  Now, I realize I can’t be trusted with numbers, but that is a factual account.  2 hours.  One song.  The way I figure it, since Ruthie sits in the wayyyy back of the minivan by herself, she gets to pick the music.  And she really, really likes “Remarkable Cows” and screams at everyone to sing it with her.  Fun times.  If you’re wondering what music accompanied the other 13 hours in the car, that would be “Mine Favorite Bob Songs.”  AKA, Veggie Tales.  I did get to listen to one whole Ella Fitzgerald CD (during which Hannah pointed out that one of the songs sounded like the music from Dumbo and I thought that was pretty cool) and, if I recall correctly, two other CD’s of my choosing.  Just one time through with each of them.  What we did learn, during the last 20 minutes of the journey, is that Ruthie’s quite the fan of Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young.

Oh.  I wasn’t going to talk about the drive.  I guess I did.  Oops.

What I was going to talk about is the fact that all three of our kids were in bed by 7:40 last night.  Asleep.  So I went out to get some Ben & Jerry’s for Ry and me (we eat ice cream pretty much every night before bed.  And sometimes I actually wonder why I’ve gained all this weight since marrying this man.).  I also took advantage of the fact that in the state we’re visiting one can buy Adult Beverages pretty much anywhere.  I think the lemonade stands are likely selling the hard stuff.

So, here we were, Ry and me, getting the kids back on their regular sleep schedule, ready to hunker down and enjoy some booze and frozen, sweetened fatty goodness, and lo and behold! the Boy has a night terror.  Followed by his mostly-conscious-but-still-not-right crying jag.  So, he came down to sit with us on the couch for a bit.  Then we sent him back to bed.  His head can’t have had more time than to just touch his pillow, when Hannah came walking out of her bedroom (they’re sleeping in separate rooms this trip), whimpering that she couldn’t sleep.  The timing was impeccable.  Then they repeated it, once more, for good measure: Hannah to bed, Isaac back downstairs, like a seamless passing of a baton. If you saw it on a movie screen, you would have declared it contrived.  Unless, of course, you have children.  Then you’d just call it Reality.

I so wanted to end my blog post there. I really did. Because it’s so pithy. And witty. But you know what? It’s not Reality. Because the reality is, I’m writing this on Sunday evening, when “last night” took place, so that I don’t take time away from my kids to write it on Monday, and it’s 10:20 PM and I last saw a kid about 5 minutes ago when Hannah came out of her room for the I-don’t-know-how-many-th time. She had been out and back in and back out and hungry and fed a cheese stick (teeth be damned, tonight) and sent back to bed then back out and lonely (despite the fact that her little sister is in the bunk bed beneath her, where she begged to have her sleep, refusing to share the big bed with her upstairs) and back to bed upstairs in the same room with Isaac (could that be the problem? She’s used to sleeping with Isaac?) and back downstairs and hot so back to her original bed and back out because her water bottle got stuck behind the bed (somehow, I’m not sure how).

I’d like to yell and threaten and throw a fit, but the Reality is, it’s late and I’m exhausted, but you don’t see me going upstairs to bed. Nope. I’m too charged up with being in a new and strange place, it sounds funny and smells strange and we have a big day to look forward to tomorrow and the bed is squishy. And I still have my usual bed-mate, and don’t have to sleep alone. It’s hard to get upset with a five-year-old girl who’s having the same sleep problem I am but who isn’t allowed to help herself unwind and relax with the use of an Adult Beverage.

Poor baby. I think she needs a snuggle. I do.

If you go to soggymommy, you can find more Ministry of Reality blog posts. And you can add your own to her Blog Hop thing. I can’t figure out how to add the thing to my post.

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I just love this . . .

So I nurse my babies to sleep. You’ve likely already caught on to it. With Isaac I was all quiet about it, fearing judgment from the “You must lay your baby down awake!!” camp. When Hannah was a baby I did all this reading on how babies are designed (well, the book says “evolved,” but I have no problem overlooking that when their conclusions are based on how babies presently operate), and I came to the conclusion that babies are made to fall asleep nursing, so who am I to argue with or work against God’s design? I suppose you could make the argument that their proclivity to fall asleep nursing is a consequence of the Fall, but good luck with that. The fact of the matter is there are all sorts of hormonal things going on–for mama and baby–that put a baby to sleep at the breast. Sounds like design to me. Actually, it sounds like a gift to me.

So, I’m no longer quiet about my nursing-to-sleep habit. It’s easy. It’s nice and cozy. (it allows for lots of internet surfing while NAKing) It’s effective. And, did I mention it’s easy? You just have to sit there and hold a warm, cozy, mama-lovin’ creature, breathing deeply in a darkened room. Sigh. Heaven.

There’s a moment in this nursing to sleep thing that I absolutely love. Isaac was and Ruth is great at it. Hannah with all her refluxy issues, not so much. The baby or toddler (and, who are we kidding, a toddler is a baby. But that’s a whole nother post.) falls off to blissful sleep, nursing away. You slip her off and pick her up. She stirs a bit, but she’s flat-out asleep. You gently lay her down in her crib. And then she does it. The sweetest thing. She rolls over onto her belly, sticking her diapered bottom straight up in the air. In our house it’s accompanied by scrunching up a blanky underneath the belly. Curled in a hump, blissful sleeep. Sigh. So nice. So so very nice. Look. Isn’t it nice?

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Musical Beds, Part 2. Where the Musical Beds part comes in.

So I started the last blog by entitling it. Musical Beds. I had a particular trajectory in mind. And then I got to writing. You know, the whole stream-of-consciousness thing. I got to the end of a thought, hit publish and went on my merry way. It was a drive-by blogging. I didn’t have time to do any writing, but I was sneaking some in anyway. And that’s where it got me. A title that has almost nothing to do with the post. I say almost nothing because I do mention the word bed in the post. So I’m thinking I’m sacrificing quantity for quality. The Blog Stats beginning to look less like an EKG report is making me all frantic: must. write. another. post. must write another post, mustwriteanotherpost!! Mustn’t let that little blue line drop back to zero. Must. Not.

So, where does that get me? Posts like the last one where the title is irrelevant because my train changed directions unexpectedly and I never went back and revisited the travel itinerary. It hit me like, well, a freight train while I was on my way home from Ruth’s well-child visit. “I never talked about Musical Beds!!”

Now. Let’s try again . . .

So here’s how our nights have been going around here lately. Hannah’s been getting up again. I think Isaac’s been giving her ideas. Or, his getting up leaves her “all awone” up there, the gravest of tragedies in Hannah’s life. I already explained Isaac’s situation. And Ruthie is now working on acquiring her canine teeth, so she’s been waking up much more too.

This all makes for some interesting nights. Here we go: Ry and I start out in our bed alone. At some point, Ruthie wakes up, Ry goes in and changes her diaper because she will not tolerate my changing her diaper in the middle of the night. She knows The Daddy is not good for much else in the night, so she tolerates him. Screaming all the way, but not writhing and kicking as she does to me, knowing I’m holding out the good stuff on her. Ry gets back in bed as I take Ruth from him to nurse her. Most times she goes right back to sleep, sometimes it takes a little bit. Then I get back in our bed. Unless. Unless Isaac has joined us in our bed in the meantime. Then there’s no room left for me and I head up to Isaac’s bed. Then, occasionally, Hannah goes downstairs and joins Ry and Isaac there.

There are many variations on this. Isaac shows up before Ruthie wakes up, but then there’s no room to return to the bed. Isaac shows up after Ruthie wakes up, he stays with us, unless Ry gets to feeling squished and then he goes up to Isaac’s bed. Then sometimes Hannah has come down and joined Isaac and me and I end up as part of a cozy mommy sandwich, with a child squished up against either side of me. Neither Ry nor I seem very aware of what’s going on through all this. We try to piece it all together in the morning:

“How did I end up all alone upstairs in Isaac’s bed? I thought I went to Hannah’s bed?”

“Well, Hannah started crying, so you went up and lay down with her. A little while later Isaac came down and lay down with me. Then Ruthie woke up and I went upstairs and asked you to go change her, so you got out of Hannah’s bed, changed Ruthie, and then when you went back upstairs you must have lain down in Isaac’s bed. Sometime after that Hannah came downstairs and climbed in with me and made a mommy sandwich.”

“Oh. I just remember getting into Hannah’s bed.”

Musical beds. Last one sleeping when the sun comes up WINS!!

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Musical Beds

*yawn*

We were soooo close to sleeping through the night, Ry and me. Soo close. We kicked Ruthie into her own bedroom and she’s been sleeping great ever since. Hannah had stopped getting up in the night for the first time ever. But Isaac. Poor Isaac. He who had slept so well, so long. No longer. I fear it’s the scary attic. Last time I wrote about it I made it sound all sweet. And it was all sweet. Was being the operative word there. Now. Now it’s just exhausting. And mildly frustrating.

Frustrating on two levels. On the one hand there’s the fact that we used to be able to just leave him after singing some songs and praying. His eyes would be opened, he’d be in the nice relaxed zone to just drift off. He’s never been good about falling asleep with someone in the room with him. But now. Now we need to stay with him until he’s completely asleep. Totally asleep. In fact, two nights ago I came downstairs after his eyes were closed and he was all twitchy and five minutes later he comes down saying, “Where did you go? I wasn’t expecting you to be gone already.” GAH!

On the other hand is the mere fact that he’s afraid of something that doesn’t exist. Last night he told me the monster in the storage space melts into the floor when the light goes on, but comes back up when the light is off. I just want to screech out: THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS MONSTERS!!!! But I know that doesn’t help. Poor, poor boy. I’m trying to be patient. I am. But last night I failed miserably.

Praise be to God, today is another day. A day to face it fresh. To come up with a new solution. And to remember that the poor boy is only six. He’s still so little. Even if he is so huge, especially compared to his sisters. He’s only six. And he’ll only be six for such a short time. Ry and I really should relish the extra snuggles we’re getting out of it, because they’re only going to diminish over time. We really should. And we will try.

And thankfully. Thankfully, I have my new best friend. My new love. My new addiction. Yep. Back to the coffee. And it almost really is coffee now. Just some sugar and half-and-half. Ok, 3 sugars and a bunch of half-and-half. But less sugar this week than last. But not BLACK like my curmudgeonly friend insists.

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